A few years back my husband drowned in a fishing accident in the North Sea, just off Hanstholm, on the west coast of Denmark.
I was plunged into the darkness of loss – and lost for words.
My children gave me a camera and it became my companion. Together we walked the same old paths, going back to the places now turned forever into Memory Lane. As I searched for consolation, new places offered me confirmation. Life around me was not at a standstill, though it was passing me by.
The gulls are flying. The cows are grazing. One season follows the other, a circle forever turning.
Trees lost their leaves and new ones appeared in the spring. This film that I was once a part of… Would it take me back?
The will to live. Sometimes it takes all that you have. I didn’t have words, but I had my new companion.
On January 10th 2015 a strong storm named Egon hit the west coast of Denmark, and I was out there in the borderland between sea and shore, with my camera. For a brief moment I turned my back to the sea making sure that no odd wave was coming my wave. Well, there was, and I was nearly swept out into the same darkness that took Egon’s life. Yes, his name was Egon, too. I managed to get ashore, and had to let go of my camera, but God granted me some extra time on this earth.
I’m back on my feet, on solid ground, and forever wandering and wondering.